This is actually a combination of two older online journals I kept. For now I'm just writing about my personal depression issues. Here is a little about me if you're curious::
*I am a mom, wife, and have dealt with depression issues for most of my life. I grew up with disconnected, unmedicated bipolar, and drunken parents, so home life was turbulent and unsupportive. I remember being in elementary school years, crying and praying at bedtime that God would let me die in my sleep. (I wanted to be at peace.) Yeahhh, good times.
*Over the years the anxiety has really started to kick in. I am trying to deal with it in my own way - through meds, medicinals, and just slagging through it. I vent, discuss, and ramble informally about whatever is on my mind relating to depression, healing, & whatever else.
*I originally started writing out my frustrations as it related to raising kids on the autism spectrum. But things have changed, the kids have grown a bit, and I no longer feel that frustration in the same way (or at least not as frequent). If you read those old entries you'll see how angry and depressed I was over the things that were happening. I felt so out of control and helpless. Thank God things are better, but I still have my own mental and emotional troubles to deal with. In many ways I have a lot in common with my autistic children.
*This year I started posting pics of my kitties - or any cute kitty ;p - when I realized I hadn't written anything in ages because I hated stewing through my own thoughts either on paper/blog, or just on my own. I think it's made things a little more positive and humorous here, something I greatly needed.
"Writing it out" is therapy for me.
Here's a random picture of me with still very new and fluffy dreadlocks:
Maybe I'll show my face next time.
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