complex trauma sux

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Highly sensitive with complex ptsd. Therapeutic journaling helps, but it can sometimes get overwhelming.

2/14/15

# I got a feeling that somebody's watching me

# I got a feeling that somebody's watching me:




Again, {someone} was using a vpn to view my picture blog. I just find it very interesting that NOONE else even goes to that blog (yes, I still have a statcounter for it, lol),  and now proxied visits have occurred TWICE! I don't think they know how to use vpns because even though it tried to encrypt the urls, the term "Proxy" is included in it, lol. Plus, system stats weren't scraped. A previous visit had the same issue except it actually listed the same "location" as matched their previous non-proxied visits.  The funny thing is, had they not logged into the vpn and just used the proxy web browser (I tested this) I would not have known they were even using a proxy. It's just quite silly. Truth be know, I kind of like it when these things happen. I just don't know what to do about it, if anything.


I know it's my ex... Or his stupid girlfriend.  It has to be. There is no other logical explanation and the puzzle pieces seem to fit, indicating so.

Of course, I could be wrong. But I'm not.
;)

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Valentine's Day:




On a happier and sweeter note: my middle kiddo (who is autistic) put me in my place the other day. He was presenting to me all the candy he received from school during the Valentine's party day. I was not looking forward to the junk he was going to bring home, and I don't much care for these types of parties which dole out sugary treats to kids who don't need them. Anyway, I reacted with, "Ewwwws," and "Grosssss!".  After a few of my outbursts he politely told me in his sweet voice, and still somewhat broken language, "Well, my teacher gave this candy to me, and she said Happy Valentine's day. So you don't have to be rude."



I was stunned. I started to laugh in part because I was embarrassed, but  mostly because his discourse was just so adorable. But he was entirely correct, and I told him so. I promptly apologized, holding in my giggles as best I could. And he was so sweet about it. Normally he chews me out when I do things "wrong", or not according to his expectations, lol. This little exchange between us was really a treat for me. I was proud of him, even though he made me feel foolish.
;)

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