Here we go again…
Ok here’s the plan:
Water fast for 3 days. When hungry and feeling desperate… milk? Broth? Maybe both, I’m not sure. And then keep going.
I’ve got to get this weight off of me. 30 pounds minimum. And i can’t be bothered to workout regularly. I like working out my way, i like being fit and feeling strong, but I’m just beyond having a strict regimen. I’m just so over doing the really hard and grueling workouts. Perhaps things will change if this fkn weight can come off first, but my brain just can’t do it. My gym class is all i can do, and I’m super bored and not really even wanting to be there. I miss my outdoor walks.
And i can’t carnivore. I don’t know. My brain just can’t get on board with it anymore. I don’t fully understand why but i then again i kind of do.
I just don’t want to be hungry. I don’t want the low blood sugar effects. I don’t want to be food and sugar addicted. I think fasting is just so mentally and psychologically “pure” as a practice, and there’s no question about what needs doing. The only question is how extreme, and even whether or not i can tolerate it. I think i will struggle with a lot of dizziness and weakness, which is why I’m contemplating the glass of milk allowance. A salt broth shouldnt interfere too bad, it just won’t be a pure water fast. But hopefully it will be ok.
I really want to do this. And i really do want to have a better lifestyle, being active with the kids, and feeling fit again. Maybe even running again because my knees can handle not lugging my heavy arse aground.
I just want to purge so much crap out of my body and spirit.
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