I like having him learn things according to some type of schedule because... well he's autistic, and often can't even decide what to order at Taco Bell without great distress, let alone be expected to organically explore the world and engage in learning on his own. (This sounds harsh but it's the truth right now.) His view of interest is incredibly small, and cannot be expanded without parental help. But this had been difficult. My depression and personal stresses have really interfered here, not to mention he still gives me trouble when I ask that we "do some work".
I have a lot to learn. I honestly don't know if I'm up for it. But we're already in it, so there's that....
I was feeling incredibly tired and had to go to the doctor to ask for some bloodwork to be done. The results came back and they only indicated a vitamin D deficiency. ... WTF ... I swear I thought I was dying! I couldn't even stand up steady in the examining room. My brain is always chuggy and foggy. (I know my writing on this blog sucks) I can't ever think straight or concentrate. I often check out books from the library and never finish them because i can't focus. I'm overweight and whenever I try to get some exercise (usually just a low intensity) my body feels like it weighs a thousand pounds. I grew up an athlete and maintained that pattern into my 20s. But this is horrible that i can't even ease into it because of all these bullcrap issues. I don't know what Im going to do.
So they checked thyroid, iron, some other things. There's NO WAY that I only have a vitamin D deficiency! *sigh* So I'll have to address that and hope for some improvement.
Life sucks. But Im really tired and with no energy for anything, so I think everything sucks. It's not really an accurate view of life at the moment - on an intellectual level at least I kind of understand that.
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