# can't sleep & about to cry. This is how I distract myself.

< For my own entertainment >

I'm looking up pics of David Tennant. =)

David loves kitties! Just like me! Look at all the kitties! Look at them!

Here he even is with a drawing of a kitty. Doesn't he look like he's having the best time ever!

David, I love you so much. You know what? Im not feeling so great today. Do you think you can help me?

I feel horrible tonight.

/sigh...

I'd really like a kiss. Not a big one. Just something modest. Like in the episode Girl in the Fireplace. 

I mean, even Barrowman snogged you. *shakes fist*

So can I? Huh? Can I? Huh? Can I? Huh? Can I?

shit. You just made me cry.

That's ok. I forgive you.

=^.^=

Purrrrrr & MEOW.

# you mean i have to leave my bedroom now?

I've been on a ska binge lately. Early traditional ska/rocksteady, that is. It helps immensely when I start to get stressed out with things to do, leaving the bedroom, cleaning the kitchen, etc. Pretty much, it helps with everything.

So thanks Pandora, because some of my old ska cd were stolen this past summer, and I never really had too much traditional ska from the 60s, which I find much more fun than the two-tone of the 70s/80s, or 3rd wave of the 90s/00s. I do love me some Madness, early No Doubt, and Hepcat, tho!

Anyway, enough talking about that. The point here is... musics. It helps. Kthxbai.

# You know its bad when ...

Im in a hurry to get some therapy in while the hubs and two-thirds of the kids are gone getting chinese fewd...



I feel so fucking manic today. I don't even know if manic is the correct word. I feel antsy. I feel neurotic. I have these weird urges to scream for no reason... or bash my head into a wall in hopes I'll go unconscious... or just headbang and wave my hair all over the place like I'm in a mosh pit...(Good lord, that reference takes one back, doesn't it.)

I needs calming hugs and kissez because I hate feeling this crazy. I was getting so annoying? crazy? overwhelming? to the husband that he pretty much put my weed tincture in front of me without saying anything. So there you go. Hoping to find that sleepy spot of chill in a little while... hopefully.

Today is a day of immense frustration

Actually it started about 3 or 4 days ago when I started my period. I haven't always had rage pms (I don't think), but I really notice it these days. I have no patience, no tolerance. And it lasts for almost all of my period, not just the pre time.

So basically Im a bitch... or just bitchy... I don't know if that matters. Funny enough I still have the depressive habits while Im "pms-ing", I'm just super angry and moody. Sucks.

I want to rant about some things but it's just useless to. I don't think i will actually help me, merely fuel my already smoldering fire-head.

My house is a damn wreck right now. I don't want to clean it. But people might be coming over this weekend (something i feel slightly pressured into doing) so I need to start now if I want to get it done before Sunday. Friday night cleaning. Fuck this. Fuck all this stuff we have. I don't even know, dude.